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今天下午在芝加哥大学的庭院里坐着，天色阴沉，略微有些凉意。四下里开的都是花，野水仙，各色郁金香，还有不知名的蔷薇科植物。不知道为什么，这里的花草从没有浓烈的香气。记忆里北京的春夏之交，无论是在护城河旁边还是校园里，暮色一旦收尽，就有草木香气四下蔓延开来。如果从湖心岛丢一块石头到水里面，就着半明半暗的微光，可以看到涟漪慢慢地散开再合拢。什么都没有发生。

这个没有花香的春天，我一直在拼命地折腾，最终回到起点。我就这样满腔委屈又万分活该地失掉了大学期间最为珍爱的一份情谊。上一个冬天夕阳下的长安街和广场、以往无数个夏天胡同里的树阴和蝉鸣就此成为绝笔。某人说得很对，我就是从小生活在一个乌托邦里，希望对所有人好，所有人也对我好，所以每次都是我伤害了别人然后还一副无辜的样子让别人来安慰我。什么时候才能懂事一点？更不用说真正的宽容？

今天看卡萨布兰卡，"The problems of three little people don't amount to a hill of beans in this crazy world." 这句话倒是很在理。我已经不能够欣赏那个美丽女人左右为难的眼泪。让所有的悲情片见鬼去吧！

我可爱的中学同学说

腐败盛行你不骂；
权贵横行你不怒；
教育之重你不语；
医疗之痛你不忿；
农村之病你不视；
下岗之哀你不闻；
专独之恶你不问；

可每每因了一些于民无甚增减，于家无甚建树，于己无甚危险的事情时，你就拍案而起了，你就热情似火了，你就冲锋陷阵了，你就上窜下跳了，你就开始爱国了！

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向此君致敬。

另引“芒刺与梁木”文中：

北京电影学院教授郝建曾经说过这样一段话，比较深刻地分析出为什么中国大陆的华人甚至没有组织爱国游行的权利。郝教授说：“我们绝对知道在什么时候可以拍 案而起作出义正词严状，也绝对知道什么时候必须对自己清楚万分的问题保持沉默、三缄其口。我们还有一个更可怕的表现。这就是柿子专拣软的捏：即在一个最安 全的方向上作出好似怒不可遏、仗义执言，实际精打细算、八面玲珑的完美演出。我们也知道什么时候说什么话可以上达天庭得到首肯，什么话会触犯众怒。就我自 己而言，这种算计已经高度技巧、出神入化；这种掌握已经进入潜意识层面。”

Books by Goldstein

Recommended:

Highly looking forward to this one:

On the Cultural Revolution in Tibet: The Nyemo Incident of 1969(Hardcover (Cloth))
by Goldstein, Melvyn C. , Jiao, Ben , Lhundrup, Tanzen

Description

Among the conflicts to break out during the Cultural Revolution in Tibet, the most famous took place in the summer of 1969 in Nyemo, a county to the south and west of Lhasa. In this incident, hundreds of villagers formed a mob led by a young nun who was said to be possessed by a deity associated with the famous warrior-king, Gesar. In their rampage the mob attacked, mutilated, and killed county officials and local villagers as well as locally stationed People's Liberation Army troops. This groundbreaking book, the first on the Cultural Revolution in Tibet, revisits the Nyemo Incident, which has long been romanticized as the epitome of Tibetan nationalist resistance against China. Melvyn C. Goldstein, Ben Jiao, and Tanzen Lhundrup demonstrate that far from being a spontaneous battle for independence, this violent event was actually part of a struggle between rival revolutionary groups and was not ethnically based. Drawing on extensive first-hand interviews with surviving participants as well as unpublished Chinese documents, "On the Cultural Revolution in Tibet" proffers a sober assessment of human malleability and challenges the parallax tendency to view every sign of unrest in Tibet in ethnonationalist terms.

Product Details
Publisher : University of California Press
Published : 01/01/2009
Format : Hardcover (Cloth) , pages 256
ISBN-10 : 0520256824
ISBN-13 : 9780520256828

失乐园的一段

大天使米歇尔对亚当说：

.."Only add
Deeds to thy knowledge answerable; add faith;
Add virtue, patience, temperance; add love,
By name to come called Charity, the soul
Of all the rest: then wilt thou not be loth
To leave his Paradise, but shall possess
A Paradise within thee, happier far."

看新教伦理与资本主义精神里面引的这一段，还是相当感动的。

"Some natural tears they dropped, but wiped them soon:
The world was all before them, there to choose
Their place of rest, and Providence their guide."

重听Sinead O'Connor

发现这一段咬字清晰的英语 高中的时候全然没有听懂，而现在却字字真切。
看来 真的是长大了啊！

Germaine
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I do think that women could make politics irrelevant.
By as a kind of spontaneous cooperative action,
the like of which we have never seen.
Which is so far from people's ideas of state structure
and vital social structure that seems to them like total anarchy.
And what it really is is very subtle forms of interrellation
which do not follow sort of hierachical pattern which is
fundamentally patriarchal.
The opposite to patriarchy is not matriarchy but fraternity.
And I think it's women who are going to have to
break this spiral of power
and find the trick of cooperation.