01/20 PPD

1. Post-partum depression (PPD) is real.
   - But it does not quite end as the body recovers from the initial aftermath of childbirth. Rather, it becomes more menacing as far as the mind knows that your body is doing just fine, leaving no excuse for your feeling awful at the same time, incapable of action.


2. PPD tends to happen when the mother feels that her pain and effort are under-appreciated and not reciprocated by other members of her household.
   - But it is actually not easy as well when your spouse is acting in the most most considerate and compassionate way. You cannot blame anyone else for your feeling awful. While. doing. nothing. to help.


3. PPD is not just a self-contained thing. It awakens all of your self-doubts in the past, and amplifies them. It throws into relief, in the honest reaction of the child, your ineffective communication of feelings, misjudgments over your own worth, and your feeble pride. It is frustrating and scary at the same time, for you know that the child cannot lie. If you smile at her without meaning it, she knows it right away and cries.


4. One smallest mistake can trigger PPD for a whole day. It happens 2-3 times a week, and I'm talking about a good week.